I saw him today on the street, I just froze there.  I never found out if he ever saw me, cos all i did after recovering from the shock was to grab my friend John and walked away.

All the emotions and feelings just rushed right back.  Even if it’s been buried for years.  I was shocked and appalled that he still affects me so much, that time didn’t do its trick of healing.

He still looks so good, even leaner, dressed in black with a slim backpack like he’s in special-op.  I am so mess up!  Why do i still fancy him?

There is someone who i thought could have replace him in my heart, but we never become an item and he craves out his own place in my heart. So it’s back to him, the spell that he cast on me was never lifted, long after he forgot about me.  Long after I thought I am all okay.

I really hope I can find someone that I will eventually come to love so much that it overshadow all this sadness and memories of him.  Sadly, that day never seems to come.

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