If people are like software, then they would also have newer versions of themselves when it’s time to replace the older self. A closer example that might make it easier to understand is Doctor Who – the Doctor is a Time Lord, and Time Lord can regenerate 13 times. The latest Doctor is the tenth, and his time is ending soon, the eleventh Doctor will replace him.

Of course the Doctor is a fictional character, real human can’t regenerate when they are about to die. My thought is applying the label “version” to people’s emotional or situational growth. Like you know how people commented on a person how suddenly he or she seems more mature, or just “grow up” after certain event happened. Or how people seems to enter different stages in their lives. My idea is almost the same, except that you actually count how many have that person matured or divide up that person’s life according certain events that happened in that person’s life.

Using my rules I counted that this is my fifth version. Now these versions have different durations, some could last many years, some could be under a year, just like some generations of the Doctor last a few seasons on TV, some, only one season.

First version of me lasted until I actually admit to myself that I am gay. First version of me was naive, booky and not that socialable. I was also not fashionable at all and even though living in New York, never really “living” a New York life.

Second version of me started when I admit to myself that I am gay.  That obviously changes a lot of things, including really starting to care about not just the clothes I wear but the way I look, from switching to contact to hair style and color and everything.  Along with the college and grad school experiences, finally open up my eyes to New York City and living it.  And of course, the first love, puppy love and crushes that came along.  They all made up a giant learning experience and that was the second version of me.

Third version of me started in 2003.  It was a period where I reap the benefits of all the knowledge I learned from the second version and really living my life.  Starting with going abroad and open my eyes even wider, and at the same time, a great friendship came along and made me realize being a geek is okay, in fact it’s awesome.  Then came along a great love that was short lived but so memorable that it changed my perspective.  Equally important was the arrival of another great love that will last forever – Apple.

Fourth version of me started when that short lived great love disappeared and at the same time, transition in career was in order.  It was marked by a period of different transitions, it wasn’t just career, but also declaring my independence by moving out of my family.  My way of life was completely changed because of all that.  A foreign friend also came along to heal the pain after the last love and made life normal again.

The fifth version of me is the most recent and also successful version of me in every way.  I am more mature after all the changes in the fourth version.  My career was really picking up and even moving into a brand new exciting direction.  Success was in my hands and I actually felt confident in my life for the first time. I am the most fashionable out of all previous versions of me and never look better.  A special friend came along that provided me stability.  To me he is like when the Tenth Doctor got Donna as his traveling partner, she balanced him out.  Everything is great and I was having the time of my life.  However, all good things must end.  Writings are already on the wall.  The song of the fifth version of me is ending, just like the Tenth Doctor.  Turning 30 is a big turning point that signaled this version, this song is ending.  With the end of the decade as a deadline and then the fall out and sudden departure of that special friend from my life.  With the move of location of work to the change in living situation all coming up soon.  The stability and balance in life has been disrupted completely.  It is about time the fifth version of me take a bow and exit the stage.  It just feel like it is time to go.

A brand new version of me is emerging and I can’t wait to see how he turns out and what’s in store for him!

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2. Blink
3. Doctor Who Finale Part 2
4. Doctor Who End of Time Part 2
5. The Crack in Time and Space

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